REFER "ARTaud, ARTist, MADman, PROPhet" on "mainpage" of http://smcp.bravehost.com     

...so there i was "hoping for a "new" start"...when ....let's call her "virtualclaudeglass.blogspot.com"...casuALLY turned to me and said...

..this..

.."so you're into (f)ARTaud are you...?"..

...to which "i" replied like A-PATHetic discipular DEVOTEeiaa-a L.

..."yeah ..."discovering him was like finding "god""...."who" then "ROLLED OVER IN THE GRAVE"...to "RISE LIKE A "PHOENIXXXxxx"..."FROM THE "ASHES"", the SUN'S SON OF "FIRE""o)))) ...NOURISH in g, OFFER in poison..POISON PRISONsun.saturnUNDER THE SIGN OF SUSAN SONTAG'S SATURN RINGS a ring a ring a rosey a pocket full of posey a tissue a tissue WE ALL FALL DOWN DEAD WITH THE (f)ARTaud's BLACK PLAGUE ...PILE UP THE (little boyszzzZZZzzz) BODIES...."SATAN'S BLOOD"MICHAEL's "WACKO JACKO" JACKSON''s SUNson "JESUS JUICE"jismspoofshpunterncummBLOOD" OF"CHRIST"turns turned, turning to W(h)INE...CONSUMEd by A (OUR{OWN) little)SECRET FIRE ...DO YOU "think" i AM..."I AM "ZZZzzzEEEeee MAN "...cum(mining) and FEEL THE BLACK SPERM OF MY VENGANCE"..."BEYOND THE VLLEY OF THE DOLLSZZZzzzZZZ"....or "IS THAT YOU"?!!1...crawling up my stairs withya long black hair...like some kinda "paul stanley's "KISS" writin' on my mirror with ya lipstick, much too vain, got scattered brain, ya use me 'nuff to GET ALL...ACT YOUR AGE GET OFF YOUR STAGE when you know you always take the boysngirrrls you like , play nice then STICK THEM WITH YOUR KNIFE...take off your INSECURE DISGUISE OWWWW!!!! ...pretEND SPACE ACE guitar SOLO...IS THAT YOU...THUNDERBIRD,..."VIRGIL"...i AM A VAMPIYRE, W(h)EREWOLF, and TROLL..hairy and flat- footed...

..."YES"!!!!..."i GET DRUNKiNg,DRINKdrinkPERHAPS YOUR GOD IS MY GOD...and we COULD ALL BE THE SAME...THAT IS DEAD...SUPERNATURAL...SEEING DEAD PEOPLE like WE ARE A SICK "SIXXXxxxTH" noSENSE...REVENGEning THE "SITH"...TO DIE ALONE TO-GET-HER...in THE WHITE NOISE  of a VIR(i)TUAL REALity in CYBER SPACE...and so-called... "pseudo"quasi"fauxxxXXXxxx"inTELLectual BANter....wanker...(FUCKening)...WANKer...

...butt "i" DOdodo (not) KNOW THIS, and DOdodo AS "FUCK" KNOW"that WE ARE ALL COOKS,THIEF'S(FUCKening SICk THIEVES), CRIMINALS, ALIVE DEAD WHORES,HIS WIVES HUSBANDS, SISTERS, yoU2 pro-BONOon the dunno EDGE  BR-OTHERS DAUGHTERS, OF THE HEART, SONS OF PETER GREENAWAY LOVERS aNd CREATORS OF yOUR DEAD "GOD"(S...FUCKening MADMAN...

..."MAD""NIEZTCHE"'s "i AM I AM ...ALL.... THE NAMES OF HIS-STORYstory..."nietzche"'s)A

...AND WHAT ARE WE FUCKENING DOING HERE?...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!like some kinda JUNE OF '44...this thing, this WHOLE GODDAMNED FAMILIAL FUCKENINGTHING IS.... A...RECIPE FOR DISASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...SUFFER INg, HAVEning FUN SWEAR IN..."WE ARE "LIVING" ....DEATH...DEAF!!?....COMMUNEicATE eaten in SO MUCH "WHITE NOISE"in the VIR(i)RTUAL REALity of PRET-END CYBER SPACE ACE....

...i had a better "answe(A)r for "you" last night...butt "i" lost" IT"....

...BUTT and i sure as hell CANNOT speak for OTHER CULTures....SLEEPing "IN" and BECUM IN "deleuzian" more RELEVANT and REVERENT BY THE "MINUTE"...in A PERPET(yo)U-ALL WAR ON tERROR which EXPLAINs PEACE AS only a PASS INg PHASE (p507 Antonin ARTaud "Selected Writings" EDITed by SUSAN SONTAG, "Farrar Straus and Grioux "1976 REST IN PEACE GOD BLESS i LOVEd YA).... like a "PAEDOPHILIC" CARDi(nA)NAL RAT-SINger POPE POACHED EGGs BENEDICT THE WHAT!!!????forEVER.....at least THE LAST WAS AN AKTor!!....

..." There are CONsciousnesses which , on certain days, would KILL THEMSELVES over a simple conTRADiction, and to do this it is not necessary TO BE  a MADman, a registered and CLASSIFIED madMAN; on the CONtrary, IT IS enough TO BE in GO(O)D health and TO HAVE REASON "on one's side."....(pg 511 ibid, "MY" fuckening EMPHASIS...)....

...SO YO "dmahan" "i" LUVLOVE "THEE" LET "ME" COUNT "THE "WAYS"...by CONCURring and AGREEing EMPHATIC-ALLY in THE BELIEF...that ARTaud was NOT "suicidal" ...BUTT look to THE SCRIPTures of HIS "VAN GOUGH, THE MAN SUICIDED BY SOCIETY"....AS BELOW at the bottom of the most cruelly desperate slopes of the heart...(TO END THE JUDGEMENT OF GOD)...

"BEsides, ONE DOES NOT COMMITT SUICIDE BY ONESELF. No-one has ever been born by oneself. NO-ONE DIES BY ONESELF either. But in the case of suicide, there must be an army of evil beings to cause the body to make the GESTURE against nature, that of taking it's own life. And i BEli(e)ve that tHERE IS ALWAYS someone else at the moment of extreme death to strip us of our own life."(p 511 ibid)

"...INSISTence on AN ENTIRE ORDER BASEd on the fulfillment of a primitive INJUSTICE...ORGANized CRIME...Things are going badly BE-CAUSE SICK CONsciousness has a vested INTEREST RIGHT NOW in NOT RECOVERing from IT's SICKness.THIS IS WHY a TAINTed SOCIETY has INVENTed PSYCHIATRY TO DE(a)FEND ITself A-GAINst the INVESTigations of CERTAIN SUPERIOR IN-TELL-ECTS WHOse FAC(t)ULTIES OF DIVI-NATION would BE TROUBLE-SOME."....(ibid p483)

"Gerard de Nerval was not MAD, but SOCIETY ACCUSEd, him of BEING MAD IN ORDER to DISCREDIT certain ...REVELATIONS that he was about to make."...(ditto)

"IT IS a MAN WHO PREFERed TO BEcome MAD, in the SOCIALLY ACCEPTed SENSE of THE WORD, rather than forfiet a certain SUPERior IDEA of huMAN honor. So SOCIETY has STRANGLEd IN it's ASYLUMS ALL those it wanted to get rid of or protect itself FROM  it's accomplices in certain great NASTINESSES. For A MADMAN IS also A MAN whom SOCIETY DID NOT WANT to HEAR and WHOm it WANTed to PREVENT from UTTERin-g certain INTOLERABLE TRUTHS....Thus on the occassion of WAR, a REVOL(U)T)ION), or SOCIAL UPHEAVAL STILL IN THE BUD, the COLLECTive CONsciousness IS QUESTioned and QUESTIONS ITself, and makes JUDGEMENT....IN CONNECTion with Baudelaire, Poe, Nietzche, Kierkegaard, Holderin, Coleridge...van Gogh.."(ibid p 486)

DOCTORS(PSYCHIATRISTS(trysts?))and MEDICINE are THE SOURCE of AN EVIL ILLNESS that DE-TESTS GENIUS IN ARTists as THE ENEMY..."...THERE IS in every lunatic a MISUNDERSTOOD GENIUS WHOse IDea, SHINING in his head, FRIGHTENed PEOPLE, and for WHOm  DELIRIUM was the ONLY SOLUTION TO the strangulation that LIFE prepared FOR HIM."(ibid p 492/3)

"I MYSELF spent nine years IN AN INSANE ASYLUM and i NEVER had the OBSESSion OF SUICIDE, BUT K-NOW that EACH CONversation with A PSYCHIATRIST....made me want TO HANG MYSELF, realizing that i would not BE ABLE TO CUT HIS THROAT."(ibid p496/7)

And FIN-ALLY..."I, in a similar situation, shall NO LONGER TOLERATE someone TELLing ME, as so often HAPPENed, "Mr ARTaud, you're RAVING,(YOU ARE MAD - TO END THE JUDGEME(A)N-T OF GOD) "without COMMITTING A CRIME."(ibid p511)...

...so this brings "us", well "me"  to "WHAT ARE WE FUCKENING DOING HERE?", and by doing so CARING through AKTion and "THOUGHT",(ALL THE MORE) HOPE-FULLY AS "ART"...to "just do "IT"" as THAT "FUCK"ening multi-slogan said...and "TO BE (or not TO BE that IS THE QUESTion)ALL "YOU" CAN"BE and ALL "YOU"CANNOT"BE"..."NICE"n"INTERESTingly", to SEEK" MEANING" whilst "ENGAGING" in "EMOTIONAL"FUCKfuckfuck"W(h)AT-AGEwwadtage"iinterestAnice

...THAT IS...

...FOR THE MASSES.... SILENCE FOR THE MASSES....

...MADness TO ESCAPE DEATH and RETRACE steps to anOTHER EXISTence WITHin "THE REAL" of THIS REALM...AN HONOUR-ABLE PURPOSE TO A SOCIETY DEVOID OF HONOUR...

OR...SUICIDE....as a SIGN, an AKTion. a GESTURE SIGNIFYing THE VICTORY OF SOCIETY OVER LIFE...  THIS IS THE STORY TOLD(OF VAN GOGH)..."AND THIS IS... what gave THE FINAL TWIST to THE KNOT OF BLOOD ...IN HIS THROAT... THAT STRANGLEd HIM."...

"(f)ARTaud's "PIGSHIT(e) writing and theatre was a POSTMODERN CELEBRATION TRYing TO TOUCH THE"FERVENT REALity OF LIFE"...BUTT "a HEALthy dose of "psychiatric medication" and MAY-BE some "good" TIME with a GOOD THE-RAPIST...i dunno ...butt HIS ART imPROVED ME and ULTIMATEly THE "QUALITY" OF "MY LIFE" in these POST so-(self professed)called"THE DAY THE WORLD CHANGED"TIMES.....

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