#64 Are you going to shows tonight? i hope so...yes?
THU 4.24pm 22/05/08

#63 Craig.look.4.that.parcel.today.or.tomorow,..,?
THU 8.30am 22/05/08

#61 Well? "Comedy"? Cobra bar, about nowish.
THU 9.10pm22/05/08

#60 U rockd as bill katx
THU 5.51pm 22/05/08

#62 Typing. At home. You just reminded me I meant to tell you to come to Cobra tommorrow night to see Rodney etc. Not doing anything tonight.
WED 11.08pm 21/05/08

#61 LOVE
WED 9.07pm 21/05/08

#60 Is mal meningas dick in yr mouth?
WED 8.15pm 21/05/08

#59 GO QLD!
WED 8.11pm 21/05/08

#58 Think this message might be for someone else? Or from last week? Did you have a good birthday?
WED 7.34pm 21/05/08

#57 8.30. My boyfriend is a looser and has ditched me. So i'll be sitting in a dark corner all alone.
WED 6.06pm 21/05/08

#56 Did.u .et.the.message.
THU 4.59pm 22/05/08

#55Westspace, ccp,meat market, flinders lane,block projects o" seee you there
THU 4.55pm22/05/08

#52 Dear thirty six, That'salright. We canwork it out.
We'll still rehearse tomorrow, but maybe satdee night too. Keep well.
MON 2.07pm 19/05/08

#51 javascript:%20void(0);HAPPY BIRTHDAY SKULL!X!
SUN 8.00pm 18/05/08

#50 Happy Birthday old chap! Have a good night & try not too maudlin. Remember 40 is the new 30!- LeoSUN 7.02pm 18/05/08

#49 Happy birthday craig. Not gonna make it tonight. Don't forget to drink. SUN 6.16pm 18/05/08

#48 Hippy bum day to you! I is your birthday? Will try to make it to your gig! On hot date so shall see where night takes us! Hope your birthday has been a bit special.X x x y z.
SUN 6.13pm 18/05/08

#47 Chains goat robot scum dead fruit kettle out. There, read THAT out to people. What time you going Empress?
SAT 8.27 pm 17/05/08

#46 dolby on rrr
WED 6.19pm 14/05/08

#3 ohh...stuck in north melb due to some train accident...
FRI 6.38pm 29/06/07

…begin beginnings…resisting…desire…a manifesto…

The key to my preliminary research has been psychoanalytical readings of my subjects. 

The event of 11th September 2001 and its discourse in the United States is analogous to the French psychoanalyst Jacques Lacan's gaze qua object in Four Fundamentals Concepts of Psychoanalysis. Lacan accords a blindspot to the subjective gaze due to its being possible to see from one view only. This limitation acts as an obstruction to the 'locus of truth' posited from without (i.e. the fact one is observed from all sides and perspectives inaccessible to the subject). Regardless of any theoretical absurdities '9/11' discourse must exist beyond the United States for "they" - those over there in the United States - are situated in a relation that is too intimate in its proximity to approach a 'critical distance'. As such the implications are profound for a globalised world. Like the in-house management of paedophilic priests in the Catholic Church, without a literal distancing, a detached, 'objective' perception is impossible. 

In Agitated States –Performance in the American Theatre of Cruelty, author Anthony Kubiak's thoughts suggests the perpetual death and destruction wrought by American foreign policy around the globe; in that "the video images [of '9/11'] both marked and indicated a Real violence really occurring elsewhere, wordless and fathomless" .

The literal hole created by the devastating impact, following the collapse of the World Trade Centre's Twin Towers in New York City's Lower Manhattan area, signified the gaping metaphorical hole constituted not solely in American history that day, but the world's within a late-capitalist era of globalisation. Referring to the terrorist attackers as "the Others who lived (and live) among us like toxic spores", Kodiak recognizes that this anonymous Other-'they'; "understands us in a way we do not yet".

I foreground this piece of writing by referring to the above as the event par excellence, circumscribing not only my project, but that of art including performance and Lacanian psychoanalytical theory. 

The concept of a performance at the Eisenberg Experimental Gallery of Victoria, Nicholson Street, Brunswick was initially informed by the treatment of detainees at the specific sites of Guantanomo Bay and Abu Ghraib.

Titled Welcome to the Funhouse, a durational performance was to be undertaken. An improvised dance form influenced by illicit drug use was to be performed . An accompanying soundtrack inside and outside the gallery was to loop repeatedly the seminal punk rock and roll musical act Iggy Pop and the Stooges' long playing record – Funhouse. The performance aspired to represent the global influence of a frustrated and decadent contemporary American culture with 'post-9/11/War on Terror' iconography.

This transformed into visions of a suspended naked figure, floating in space and being coated from the ceiling above in a thick, viscous substance. The accumulative time-based effects intended to induce 'the uncanny' (notions of that which is strangely familiar) as asserted by the Viennese father of psychoanalysis – Sigmund Freud. 

The performance event I am now proposing tentatively titled ""Study Master, Masters Study'" assumes the United States' Arthur C. Danto's incorporation of German philosopher G.W.F. Hegel's notions of art fulfilling its historical and spiritual destiny when its practice disclosed a philosophy in action.

The historical avant-garde movement of the Dadaists and their political critique of art's conceptual status and its institutional structures (including theorization and commoditisation by capitalist markets) act as a signpost for this concatenation. Exemplified by French artist Marcel Duchamp's ready-mades, the art of this performance is conceptual, in that it analyses what the art of performance is by an ontological and empirical research as practice. This 'pure thought' evokes the "thinking through performance" model of Victoria University – Footscray Park's Division of Performance Studies in its Human Movement Faculty. As well, the United States' Herbert Blau posits the 'methodological doing' of performance in order to think in the final essay 'Limits of Performance: The Insane Root' in The Dubious Spectacle. For French existential humanist philosopher Jean Paul Sartre, being is such that it is one which can only do whatever is in its power. Beyond it, one can count on nothing but what is lived in action and not hoped for. To this mode I aspire.

I intend for the performance to play with notions of the metaphysical consciousness founded in the Platonic philosophy of Ancient Greek Antiquity. Perceived as mimicry, imitative conditions of art as a mere copy of the reality in life accorded it as being at a third remove from the essential nature of things – ideal forms and their essence. The history of contemporary art has sought to disprove this inferior ontological status. It is within this context that my performance work and German avant-garde musical composer Karlheinz Stockhausen and British artist Damien Hirst's contentious provocations – that 11th September 2001 was art – situate themselves.

I equate the art of my performance work as an epistemological research practice whose knowing and being are 'ideological life moments' rendered as 'Other'. Its pedagogy relates specifically to the experience of autonomous life. It is what the United States' Richard Schecner's book Performance Theory – following American Fluxus artist Allan Kaprow – asserts as a mystery and the "simple but altogether upsetting idea of art as an event – an 'actual'" . For Kaprow, this process of actualization became 'non' or 'lifelike' art. 

For the German philosopher Martin Heidegger in 'The Origin of the Work of Art', art is the conflict between concealment and unconcealment of truth. It is an event and art is the specific site of truth. And it is within this – the truth of art – that an essential nothingness or absence in presence is laid bare or made to appear present.

At the heart of my performance work is a principle of exposition. Art's privilege is in making absence, the absent, the unnoticeable or non-visible be made to appear or make its appearance noticeable as if present. The meaning of Being is manifested as a sublime mystery of presence. Something else 'other' appears, making its appearance, itself present as a noticeable presence and unconcealed in an openness to the hidden mystery of being itself or as enigmatic 'thing-in-itself'. 

Truth as an artistic creation is essentially historical. Its happening occurs in the manner Heidegger asserts in 'Conversations on a Country Path About Thinking' as a 'higher acting'. That is to say, transformational time-based effects are incurred by means of waiting – that is to say, durational.

According to French artist Antonin Artaud in the seminal book The Theatre and Its Double, the ideal public always responds to the true – truth – when it appears, namely in the locus of the streets and not within art per se. My performance work will solicit offers of gifts, in return as truth itself, literally on the streets at an often frequented traffic intersection. Such notions evoke Slovenian theorist Slavoj Zizek's reading of Lacan's psychoanalytical theory whereby communication is structured like a cybernetic paradox. That is to say, the sender receives back from the receiver a return of their own message in its 'true form'.

As per Artaud, a crude, immediate means of the banal and its quotidian-everydayness-of-life will be employed that appropriates pedestrian actions and observations. The more simple, plain and pure the art, the more directly engaging are things as an approach towards a greater extent of Being as per Heidegger.

Again following Artaud, this will be refined into impressions, producing vibrations in the subjective organism, in order to perceive a reaction in the 'other-as-audience-participant'. Together we as active participants might recognize a truth and authenticity, or rather, each of our authentic, subjective truths beyond inauthentic procedures of techne or craft.

As such pre-existent techniques of production impose a certain particular kind of consciousness by rote. Formulae's pre-conceived purposes contrive categorised definitions that limit dynamic relations to being as 'either/or' (e.g. either black or white, either art or non-art (i.e. life), either freedom fighter or terrorist, either good or evil, either us or them, either me (i.e. I) or you, either mine or yours, either self or Other, either subject or object) and not becoming i.e. 'and/both'. My performance artwork is undetermined.

As such, the art of my performance work will play with post-modern ideologies that assert 'things' as being merely constructed and do not essentially exist. Like god and art itself (now philosophy); because of their perceived 'deaths', everything is permitted. In doing so, defined categories are rendered as an 'and/both' space beyond the inherent violence of 'either/or' propositions in Western culture.

Sartre's 'Existentialism and Humanism' asserts an inter-subjectivity or wholeness of unity, evoking the French theoretical duo of Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari's 'rhizomatic' transformations or becomings (following from Ancient Greek Antiquity's philosophers – Anaximander's individuation process of 'flowing formlessness' and Heraclitus' flowing river as well as Italian Enlightenment philosopher Baruch Spinoza and German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche's absolute and infinite substances) as well as Lacan's topology of the moebius strip (the inverted three dimensional figure eight, materialised as a torus or Klein bottle) existing prior to that which is considered 'proper', in the formulation of barred and alienated subjectivity. Feminist theorist Elizabeth Grosz's Volatile Bodies advocates this model by way of transformative torsions between states.

Interestingly, Schecner's essay 'Selective Inattention' proposes a chart (configured whilst collaborating with anthropologist Victor Turner) with the same schemata, ordering the flows of energy between social and aesthetic drama. That is to say, art utilizes consequential actions of social life as raw material to produce aesthetics, and in turn, society derives techniques from art to support itself. Subsequently, this refuels the cycle as perpetual, perceptual experience. 

The 'absoluteness' of art and its 'authentic truth' is transcendental experience. That is to say, to know I exist beyond self. For there is an-Other which is both present and absent. In this (the 'absolute truth' of the art in my performance work) an immediate sense of one's self-awareness is experienced not as merely a simple materialistic object – as perceived by the cogito ergo sum of 17th Century French Enlightenment philosopher Rene Descartes – but that which is 'and/both'. The art of my performance work contradicts the spectre of "I think therefore I am" haunting Western metaphysics, as it pertains to a being present with (an)-Other as the pure condition of one's own existence and actions.

As such, truth is mediated as a relation to (an)-Other who is indispensable and an intimate knowledge is accessed as a revelatory inter-subjective circularity. The art of my performance work is ultimately constituted on the planes of an aesthetic morality and recognizes we are not ready-mades but self-made. And yet still, we are condemned to the burden of a complete, profound responsibility of freedom within the necessities of being in the world – i.e. of having to survive or die whilst surpassing limitations such as these, within actions denying or accommodating our survival or death.

Ultimately, anguish, despair and abandonment to desire with an accompanying anxiety is conferred. This is the ethical imperative of Lacan – "Don't give way on or cede your desire". That is to say, that we must insist becoming subject of our own desires by free, unconscious associations. This is constituted in the art of my performance work as improvisations in-the-moment-here-and-now. 

Such notions Artaud evokes when he states "I will do what I have dreamed or I will do nothing". The art of my performance work will approach a dream-like event, ultimately transcending the banal artifice of its quotidian-everydayness-of- life. A personal, 'naked' fatality will pursue unconscious directions with desires to reveal the meaning of our waking life's states, whose various multiplicities are too numerous to name. 

My performance artworks ambivalent constradinction of self-commitment and ethical action is indistinguishable from the 'authentic' or 'inauthentic'. This evokes the ambiguous antimony of art with life and life with art. As such, one approaches ratified definitions apriori.

The art of my performance work is essentially transgressive because it is of a 'non-utlitarian value'. Following French Surrealist Georges Bataille's 'Notion of Expenditure', principles of classical utility and loss as well as production, exchange of 'unproductive' activity, gifts or potlach as sacrifice will inform the performance artwork.

The utilitarian form of the social bond – a concentrational anxiety – is constituted as a freedom that is never more authentic then when it is walled and analogous to a prison or (as per this proposed performance artwork) site of a gallery space.

My performance work aspires to approach an authentic truth of life's being in art. Inspired by and aspiring to 'Nietzschean will' and Heidegger's Gelassanheit, a courageous process approaches a vertiginous experience of freedom as a 'releasement towards things' concealed (i.e. that which is unwilling, namely the psychoanalytical unconscious) in order to transform being into that which is the unconcealed. This is Heidegger's doctrine of a thinker – that which remains unsaid within what is said.

Analogous to this is Goat Island artist Matthew Goulish's quotation of fellow American and avant-garde musical composer John Cage in 39 microlectures in proximity of performance. Referring to the music of Morton Feldman that the highest responsibility of art is concealment, Goulish defines a work as implying an unconcealment as one becomes aware of a presence beyond what is. For Goulish an artwork's singularity is comprised of infinite time-based events or becomings. 

Appropriation will play with ideals of 'art for art's sake' whose distinction from life renders both as a neutered (that is to say, castrated, in psychoanalytical parlance) spirit. Without being beyond its own realm, art's grandiloquence in-effect does nothing and (re)-produces itself as negation. 

My performance artworks approach the most extreme possibility and actuality of life's existence. It is onto-theology and a radical, indomitable risk like the act in Lacanian psychoanalytical theory or French post-structural theorist Jacques Derrida following the Danish philosopher Soren Kierkegaard – it approaches, courts and embraces failure like Goulish and Britain's Forced Entertainment director Tim Etchells — both of whom have dedicated a website to the documentation, study and theorisation of failure (www.institute-of-failure.com) — or French artist Jean Cocteau "the only work which succeeds is that which fails" and Ireland's Samuel Beckett in his early critical work on Proust, that to be a modern artist "is to fail, as no other dare fail, that failure is his world, and to shrink from it desertion." Or as the Unnamable reassures himself, "I am doing my best, and failing again.". The predicament of being alienated from the "real" world and then be, or become at home with it. 

Like Artaud, it all depends on the manner and purity. This is how 'authentic truth' even if mythological (i.e. powerful yet seemingly incomprehensible) wills itself, in-itself, for-itself and an-Other(s). 

Ultimately, it is an expression of being, as 'limited' within a relation to what is 'other' in being itself.



Dear Peta…resisting desire…our inaugural meeting was encouragingly optimistic…"with potential"… I quote you in your own words…transporting me… literally…

In acting improvisational classes with Ranters Theatre’s Adriano Cortese , we have been exploring the concepts of following and leading, and it is in the beautiful and magical possibilities of performance, that a way may be provided as an alternative answer for the conduct of an individual in society.

 

It provides an insight and potential enlightenment to the society outside and it’s condition.

 

Following and leading is ideally a relation of listening and trust.

 

Breakdowns and problems arise when there is a lack of trust, or a conflict of power relations, for following is not a slavish, overtly act but one of an autonomous complicity, it is an act(ion) of critical choice. One which is ACTIVE…

 

Without a relation of listening and trust , one begins to resort to the politics of a dictatorship, where choice becomes a slavish , narrow-minded understanding, and communication becomes propoganda and dogma….

 

What choices are deliberate, that is, DELIBERATED or merely accepted, and dictated in the name of so-called “noble virtues” and “values” by a ruthlessly simple expediency.

 

This would appear to be the terms of  capitalism’s “economic rationalism” and the events transpiring from September 11^th 2001 such as Iraq and sadly New Orleans after Hurricane Katrina…

 

… “…Esse est percipi..” stated the philosophical Bishop George Berkeley translated as “…to be, ..is to be percieved”…

 

What takes place outside ourselves, takes place within ourselves…what we witness, is what we become…

 

There is no such thing as a person of character, because a person is beyond a singular, one-dimensional entity, that is to say a constant, consistently “locked down” and pigeon holed; for a person is MANY THINGS, a multi-dimensional being, like those persons that make up nations…

 

Following,… or dissent for that matter is a call to action , a form of choice from which we cannot be decieved and be bereft of our humanity in order to destroy the humanity of others (NOT in OUR name)…

 

And the conditions of this possibility is that we are inter-dependant…

 

Each of us is the other to others, acting, reflecting, thinking thoughts, understanding, transforming, changing for good or for ill, we are agents with affects that effect…

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

Personal responsibility; it IS political, and competition creates suspicion and a distrust of values, instead of empathy, support, and a being simply TOGETHER…

 

Competition, resulting in the victory of a designated winner makes US ALL potentially each other’s ENEMY…

 

Our habits of perception anchor us in impaled patterns , until we are frozen, fixed, unmovable, immobile, until like a capitalist trickle down effect, we simply work off the top of society’s crust, where very special advantages are on display ,…like the wayward son of a former President, called George W Bush…

 

Recognition can lead to a collaborative process of act(ion)s, requirements, gatherings, meetings, demonstrations, eligibilities and invitations…

 

Acting ettiquettes subscribed to or renounced, recommend through stylized performance, a way of being visible, recognisable, comprehensible, validating a definition of identity in a costume that are clothes for protection…in other words a mask subject to flux…

 

These are ways to sell different modes of being in the disguises of sincerity, that which is presented…

 

…“…I saw the President …and he had compassion in his eyes…”…

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

…Of course he did !!!…he is human afterall…we hope…!!!….

 

Actions from the “good” version of the person that’s “him”, or “her”, or “you” or “me”, or “them” or “us”, we respect and encourage;…the “bad” version of the person that’s “him” or “her”, or “you” or “me”, or “them” or “us”, we one day hope and wish to have sovereignty over…and finally a version of the person that’s “him” or “her”, or “you” or “me”, or “them” or “us” which is NOT “him” or “her”, “you” or “me”, “them” or “us”….that is to say “THE OTHER”…an UNKNOWN expression which is not recognised (yet) as an authentic “me”…

 

We are surrounded by expressions of “good me” and “good you” to reinforce the “good us” (or the bad) for our benefit ,…and if we do not accept and appreciate this, then one may be considered one (or many)of “them” which is “misguided” and “dangerous”, by the rejection of the “good” in favour of the  “bad” , and therefore there must be an elimination , an extermination,..there must be a death,..by judgement....

 

President George W Bush, his Republican Administration in cahoots with big globalised business, like some kind of fucked up born again Hitler, Satanic Lucifer, devilish Anti-Christ, as the pied piper, taking us toward OUR DESTINY, leading us over a cliff to our willing materialistic demise..to a christian’s apopalyptic armageddon and judgement day…

 

…GOD BLESS GOD FEARING AMERICA ..!!!…for we fear his strength, …and then emulate it …validation by duplication…

 

“When your children shall be found of murder,

You shall make laws,

But these laws shall not bind.

 

You shall be made to think,

And although fear of your thoughts shall exalt you,

Many of your thoughts shall bring you sorrow,

And cause you to forget your exaltation.

 

You shall use your mind,

Not to understand,

But to doubt.

And even if you understand,

Still you shall doubt.

 

And your children shall live in fear of me, you and each other.

 

You shall be afraid of everyone else,

And you shall even be afraid of yourself.

Fear and shame.

We are supposed to be afraid.

 

In the day shall be endured,

The same longing as in the night,

And in the night shall be endured,

The same longing as in the day,

Accursed you shall be, you,

Alone.

 

 

For whatever thought,

And whatever seen or heard,

You shall think it, and see it, and hear it,

Alone.

 

And henceforth shall you thirst after me…”

 

…the self; imprisoned, and eroded by a hopeless history of sin…

 

Cinema validates our experience, and the more confused and chaotic an era is, the more celebrities are taken on as models to help sustain all kinds of misconceptions which permeate the status quo…

 

The most successful aspect in the act of persuasion is that people are made to aspire to things they don’t even really want..and lack things they don’t really need…

 

Television promotes a uniform, inner life of imagination…

 

By a loss of respect, the circle or pattern that is perpetuated is broken, and we begin to learn of other(s) places to inhabit…

 

In the act of witnessing , we develop our identities in relation to actions and the concept of character , we simply imitate an aesthetic that remakes the very same system’s processes and findings, and therefore limit possibilities and conceal alternatives…

 

Perhaps, if on September 11^th 2001, the way America looked at the world was changed forever,; after Hurricane Katrina, America had changed in the way it looked at itself…

 

From these words extracted from the Open Theatre’s Jean Claude van Itallie and Joseph Chaikin’s book “The Presence of the Actor”, R.D Laing’s “The Politics of Experience” to these taken from the emancipator and President Abraham Lincoln, banging on about America … “…with it’s institutions belongs to the people who inhabit it.Wherever they shall grow weary of the existing government, they can exercise their constitutional right of amending it, or their revolutionary right to dismember or overthrow it ..”…

 

…There are intuitive things in us, which we knowm, know more than we think they do, …the secret is knowing how to listen to them…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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 wf HIShiOUR idestour for the “reis arsunknown   i I oo

 

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Water, water, every where,
Nor any drop to drink.

The very deep did rot: O Christ!
That ever this should be!

 

From Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner”

 

There's no earthly way of knowing
Which direction we are going
There's no knowing where we're rowing
Or which way the river's flowing

Is it raining, is it snowing
Is a hurricane a-blowing

Not a speck of light is showing
So the danger must be growing
Are the fires of Hell a-glowing
Is the grisly reaper mowing

Yes, the danger must be growing
For the rowers keep on rowing
And they're certainly not showing
Any signs that they are slowing

 

 …These words from the boat ride in the 1971 film Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory haunted me as I witnessed the images emanating out of  a New Orleans left in the wake of a hurricane called “Katrina”…

 

…the drowning of a civilisation…

 

…A modern day Atlantis…

 

Transformed I sat shocked wanting but not knowing how to cry at such a symbolic act.

 

The United States of America’s governance under the George W Bush Republican Administration’s refusal as so-called leader of the free world (and as an example to other fundamentalist terrorist organisations who seek to fulfill their own agenda’s regardless of it’s consequences ) to acknowledge and comply with multi-lateral environmental treaty’s , abandon those agreements which provide the opportunity and incentive to ignore calls and pleas by the international community to heed international law.

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

And so what we see is a nature, THE  nature that so many other states and territories around the world have to endure for the production of so many inefficient energy resource dependant polluting industries for the powering of a needlessly inefficient and excessively energy resources dependant, environmentally unfriendly global world economy.

 

The warning in that beautifully strange and unique exotic accent by the Mayor that all of New Orleans had to be abandoned was seemingly unbelievable, sounding for all the world like a ludicrously bad joke,  seemingly ridiculous, an over the top exagerration of monumental proportions.

 

And so all those who could afford the access to fuel and a vehicle tried to get the hell out of the hurricane’s pathway as it came blowing and pelting in.

 

The first to go ironically were the oil rigs, and then with the misguided budgeting of Bush’s Republican Administration, which saw the reduction of revenue due to tax cuts for the fuckening wealthy rich and their security in defence spending for Iraq, the levee breaks, falling like a Led Zeppelin,as thousands of African Americans are herded into a sporting arena, recalling the feeding of persons from a certain religious group to the lions in Rome..and not to mention an era not so long ago of slavery and quarters for blacks only to be treated as though they were but second class animals.

 

But it wasn’t just the poor black folks left to die but all those considered economically unviable such as the elderly and disabled…

 

And what of the incarcerated and panic stricken wardens who abandoned their posts in terror and set the imprisoned free, loose upon an already vulnerable , traumatised and unsuspecting community in dire need of basic essentials in order to preserve life and conduct their own reign of terror…

 

Now this is capitalism at it’s economic rationalist best …as non-governmental organisations took up the slack and beared the burden left by a bottom line profit motive driven, emergency response, that has eroded govermental responsibility by privitisation and “market forces”, and thus struggled with the magnitude of the calamity, the destruction wrought and havoc wreaked and thus,  the subsequent clean up of the mess which ensued….George W Bush was once again caught floundering in a slow response because he was on  vacation, holidaying on his vast acres of ranch ala 4 years ago on one certain September 11^th 2001 morn….like a modern day Nero, only this time Rome wasn’t burning but drowning and sinking….

 

 

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

 

 

 

And what was his kind, compassionate words of support and wisdom as Commander-in-Chief but a call for “personal responsibility:”..effectively washing and wiping his and the Republican Administration’s hands of their own responsibility to those who he is suppose to represent as the elected government…and then he makes a call for people not to play the “blame game”…a game which he need only play by looking in the mirror…and as the race card was pulled out, the Administration sought the ace up their sleeve, a spade of affirmative action recipient and traitor, the President’s best friend Condi-aleeza Rice…

 

And all this while with all the the resources in Iraq, no-one was coming to save or protect these poor unfortunates, or restore order in a lawless now third world refugee state …and as the tourists dollars bought the rides out of there with their globalised money which talks, powering the economy with the (bull)shit and spin…their own citizens were left to remain and die in watery graves and a hell on earth, like the streets of Baghdad  and Iraq…Even after the devastation of the Asian tsunami in 2004, such scenes of  desperation for bare essentials and  looting were not seen. Their descent into a capitalistic anarchaic materialism saw Defence Secretary Donald Rumsfeld’s famous quote on the looting of Iraq by United States  soldiers as a case of “stuff happens” becomes a merciless shoot to kill policy on the American disadvantaged, yet equally opportunistic citizens…it would seem it’s different when it comes to American white goods as opposed to the cradle of civilisation and Iraq’s ancient Babylonian artefacts in their museums, what with the threat of those same very soldiers who having recently returned from Iraq, were apparently more than willing to “shoot to kill” their own citizens…

 

What progress !!?  and what hope !!!??… brings the trickle down effect of capitalism, one which hides, then drowns to expose the working poor and the inequalities of a system which forgot any concept of social responsibility ..or humanity for that matter…

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

…And so Al-Qaeda claims responsibility for the wrath of god in nature, for the death and destruction of some of the poorest in the world’s most powerful and wealthiest, richest country, and George W Bush declares another war …on nature …beginning with “Katrinastan”….and this time he’s not happy (but still goofy, clumsy)…and he means BUSINESS…

 

…The water becomes toxic due to the pollutants of big business industries and New Orleans becomes America’s Chernobyl…

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

..As George W Bush’s fellow poor Americans are first left to die , the survivors are then transported from one superdome sporting arena to another in Texas as the sport of economics continues in  a relentless and perverse Darwinian survival of the fittest which is considered an efficient (world’s best practice) evolutionary progress, whilst still declaring war on other’s in the name of abstract notions such as “god”…And all the authorities can do is suggest everyone prays …!!!!…WHO TO ???!!! for someone’s sakes ? …a fuckening miracle  ?…to rewind time for a superman never to come ?…to a man with a white beard ?…for gay marriages ?…to stop the weather patterns of a mother’s nature ?…to a Jesus ?..or a Mohammed ?…

 

The state of terrorists, …planes crashing , falling down and out from the skies on top of us, …nature’s turning, churning and Willy Wonka’s been remade,… as celebrities pitch in with a desperation to serve a mutual, social obligation …and do their best with their leisure time… and for their parasitic ways…

 

…A chef , the one we call “Davin” declares triumphantly,…emphatically … “we are still in our infancy !…”….and  to this proud declamation I retort equally with pride, a reply to the scientific, (f)artistic, dirty, stinking technologically obsessed hippy… “there is such a thing as infant mortality, …so what if we never get beyond this…our infancy ?…”…

 

..This is sick madness, insanity,…and somethings got to change …or give…to society… not capital economy…

 

..Finally the images of all the unsold newspapers and their headlines in their vending machines are frozen in time, the past now has all but just become wishful thinking…and all those abandoned cars are an eerie sign that hints and  haunts the future..

 

…something bad is happening…

 

…Bring on 2012, I say,…

 

…bring it on…bring it on…

 

…as I sit disgusted in a state of nausea and watch my favourite perversion of motor sport ‘s Formula 1 racing, (look out for written pieces on website soon !) ss I watch the cars pointlessly go round and round to just simply follow each other …wasting time, money, limited, finite resources, burning up in their use of fossil fuels and polluting nations,…and starting wars,…and sucking up dollars like so much downforce…and I think to myself…not of Louis Armstring’s “What a Wonderful World”, but of how it all should be banned with cigarette smoking ,…and I get up, sickened…and go to bed to sleep… to dream…of something else’s place…

 

 

…GO FUCK YOURSELF…

 

a passer-by(e)…just passing…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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..."...MY GOD... WHAT HAVE WE DONE..."...co-pilot Robert Lewis of the "Elona Gay", approximately 30, 000 feet above Hiroshima....

..."...NOW I AM BECOME DEATH, ...THE DESTROYER OF WORLDS..."...nuclear physicist Robert Oppenheimer recalling the words of "Visnu" from the Hindu scripture of the Bhagavad Gita after the first atomic explosion, tested in Los Alamos in New Mexico, known as "Manhattan Project"...some laughed,...some cried,...most were silent...for the future...of mankind...and it's questions...

..."....the strong sustained, awesome roar, warned of doomsday... and made us feel that we puny things were blasphemous to dare temper with the forces hitherto reserved to the Almighty ..."...wrote the Manhattan Project deputy director Brigadier General Thomas Farrell...

..."......this is not a pleasant weapon we have produced...a city is ...henceforth... not the place in which to live..."..., remarked the Manhattan Project's metallurgist, Cyril Smith....

...Some words speak of events, ...otherwords, events makes us speak....

...A chain reaction of thoughts from 400BC,...parachute.... down to Hiroshima...

...OUR FrIEND ...THE ATOM ....

...human BECOMING machine, ...and the machine BECOMING... diety .... a god...THE GOD...OUR GOD... 

...(what kind of fucked up "god" created THIS HUMAN PROJECT !!!?!!!!...he sure is one nastiey pastiey !!!   ...

The production of ( AT LEAST !!!!!) 70,000 !!!...rapid, disceet and  extremely business-like(economical, logical, logistical and reasonable !!!!) deaths ...of a previously unimaginable efficiency in the process of extermination ...one which made Nazi Germany's Adolf Hitler look like a "chump" ...!...in comparison...

...OUR FrIEND ...THE ATOM....

...resembling the innocence of a mushroom...

...But for the "hibakusha", ...the bomb's survivors who witnessed this...it did not resemble a "mushroom" ...

...for them it was a living hell...a burning ...on an apocalyptic earth...a collapse...in the end of the world...   

...a world where bodies of matter were vapourized, turned to fire and ash...and permanent shadows...in an instant flash of light ...and a searing blast of force, full of heat in hot wind...    

...and then enveloped in an eclipse of total darkness...

...A machine developed to address the problem of human extermination, had resolved the moral questions of that extermination,... by removing the burden from the  individuals, whose participation in the system and responsibility for it had shrunk ....beyond vanishing point ...

...and into the ambiguity of a bomb as a "innocence" machine...

...then the black sheets of rain ...like so much crude oil in Iraq ...began to fall out ...and stain their shredded, melted skin...indiscriminate...............civilians...

...all in order to save "so many" lives of allied soldiers...and the enemy...this justified....what ?...justifies...

...Contemporary cultures produce myths about themselves,... the strongest media machines produce the most powerful myths...Once the myth is established ...it is difficult to make out whether reality produces the cultural myth,... or the myth reality...

...It is true,...just like in the allegory of Plato's Cave...all life is a series of illusions,...and this illusion is particularly painfull...

...in THE famous  words of "Mario Savio"...is the BECOMING(s) of certain windows of opportunity.... 

...there is a time when the operation of the machine becomes so odious, ...makes you feel so sick at heart, ...that you can't take part...And you've got to put your body on the line,...on the gears,....and on the wheels,...upon the levers,....upon all the apparatus...and YOU'VE GOT TO MAKE IT STOP...!!!!...

...A BELIEF...

...believe...

...THE PERFECT PERFORMANCE ....COULD DISMANTLE A BOMB.....

...(EXCERPTS TAKEN FROM "GOAT ISLAND"'s (a chicago performance group) MATTHEW GOULISH'S BOOK (and my bible ...!!)..."39 MICROLECTURES...- in proximity of performance..."...

...now... for "ARTaud"...and "Buto(h)"...

...Antonin ARTaud's radioplay "TO END THE JUDGEMENT OF GOD" (written two years after the end of World War II and just months before his death), is the heralding of a  prophetic warning against an American (and Russian) imperialism (scientific, militaristic, and religious) ...one which sees these superpowers make atoms with the "microbes of god"...

...the theatre ARTaud alluded to in his works,...  is evoked in the contemporary Japanese post World War II dance of Buto(h)...with it's mystical and dark physical expression, it acts as an aftershock to the reaction of the atomic assaults  borne by the United States with the bombs "Little Boy" and "Fat Man" on the Japanese cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki respectively...

...Hijikata Tatsumi, a poor farm boy from Akita, in northeast Japan was a teenager intending on a career in classical dance when the course of Japanese history was forever altered, and the nation's emerging artists were presented with an indelible opportunity to change a rigid class structure and the attitudes towards the country's aesthetic origins...

...One way to attack the oppressive aspects of social tradition was to rebel against conventional dance forms and enter an artistic substratum that condoned Hijikata's revolutionary ideas..

...By startling an unyielding, class-consciousness into recognizing the presence of it's outcasts, and so-called "non-people" such as the vagrants, prostitutes, whoremongers, drunks, homeless, and the impoverished; ...Hijikata's aim was to expose the underbelly  and dark truths that hid underneath socially masked surfaces and throw off the mantle of Westernism in order to rediscover and redefine what it was to be Japanese...

...As the country lay in ruins,...  Hijikata's new dance utilised these reprobates' crude physical gestures and  uncouth habits such as defecatory stances, perverse sexual gestures and  brutally violent depictions of bestiality and buggery to develop a style of choregraphic extremism called "anokoku buto(h)"... 

...This interpretation,... in a dance of the soul's darkness,... was to be a direct assault that rejected the  refinement, the understatement and classical definition of beauty so valued in aesthetics......

...Whilst buto(h) has metamorphisised within displays of lyricism,  gentleness, tenderness, playfulness, humour and romanticism,...it still retains it's dark, grotesque qualities instilled by it's originator....

...The dance of Buto(h) in a post - ..."...the day that changed the world.."... September(9/)11th seems evermore revelant ...one which is a resonance ...and an awareness of human fragility ...in a post-modern and weary age of nuclear weapons, terrorism and social decay...

...on that, one of many fine days in September,.. the hyperreal media machine went into overdrive capturing the most images (EVER!!!...in the history of the world) and the emotions of yet another day that changed the world...in a dejavu...came  comparisons of Pearl Harbour...while in the comfort and freedo(o)m of my home i was troubled with a ...THE thought..."is this the karma of Hiroshima ?...and then Nagasaki ?"....IS THIS...?...IT....?...

i will think about it ...and get back to it...in the meantime read me new piece, currently on me website as "no performance-/-roughcopy" or something or rather...it will be called something like "In Praise or Blame ...?- a short history of performance (art) from Plato to 9/11"

...like those poor bastards on a space station or shuttle...or trapped at the bottom of the ocean's seas in a submarine... in the immortal words of the british poet and art critic who was an expert on japanese art "laurence  binyon" in his poem "For The Fallen"..."at the going down of the sun.And in the morning....WE WILL REMEMBER THEM..."... 

(excerpts from "Dancing and the Dark Soul of Japan:An Aesthetic Analysis of Buto"(h) by "vicki sanders")

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"this"" appeared" in the "local rag"..".i "liked" it"..".it "goes "something" like this...

"...the bigger picture...the possible conclusion that truly evil people don't believe that they're evil at all. Whether they are murdering Russian school children, or invading Middle Eastern countries, or condemning an entire race of people, or using "Enron" as their bitch, or commanding a mass of stupid "believers" to stop using condoms, they are convinced they're all doing it for some greater good....

Despite the outcome of wrongful death and misery.

And the good people - they're the ones who are usually made to accept that they're evil....

...consider the plight of the Catholics at the confessional, Baptists in the Revival tent, Jews at Yomm Kipper, and countless others who are meant to think of themselves as sinners, atoners, unworthies and self-flagellants.

Why?...because they believe it.

And it's not natural.

Nature doesn't have any sense of evil.

There's nothing evil about a village being destroyed by a volcano.

There IS everything evil about  being destroyed in a firebombing.

Evil involves forethought.

It's all in the planning."...

 

SO WHY DOES EVIL EXIST ?

AM I EVIL?

ARE YOU? "

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"WE ARE BORN INTO AN ENVIRONMENT OF LIES".....there "i "go "again" (like some kinda "she" in a "lou reed"velvet underground"'s "john cale" song..."YOyo" mo tucker"!! motherfuckening father yoYO(u)!!)"with"ARTaud and "His"THEATRE AND IT'S DOUBLE"....father fuckening mother LIFE....

..AND "i"AM"NOT"DEPRESSED"...!!!!"eXXXxxxcept" when i am forced to have to do the things i do NOT WANT to ....THIS BLOG "could"BE"ONE"of "THEM"....

QUESTions...IS DEMOcracy..."JUST"SIMPLY"a"VOTE";a poll "in"CYBERSPACE", RADio(yniSISUS), or "REALity"TeleVISION" ..."AND"ONE"which"MAKE"s ABSOLUTELY NO DIFFERence..."chapELLE corby"..."YOU"DECIDE"FUCKwitting NATIONS "NOTHING",,,,....

...."IS"das"KAPITALism"as"DEMEANin g and "NIHILISTIK" as it seems ..."YOU(r) ""BODY"leaving"THE"BODY"of "anOTHER"YOU(r)"LOVE"rR)sR...."A"LONEr"YOU"SECRET"ly"CRAVE"in"THE"HOPE"for "THE"SUN"'s SKYand THE SKY's "SUN"S"to" EXPLODE"with THE MOON"for an "ANNIHI-(e)LATION to an"END"of a "godFORSAKEn"WORLD"FOR SALE"....JUST to PROVE that what YOU WERE TO DO FOR THE REST of THE DAY WAS UTTERly FUCKening POINTLESSness...in "TIME"and "THE" SCHEME" of "THINGS."......"THE DAY"AFTER"THE DAY"AFTER "DAY"of "THE"NEXXXxxT"DAY"TO-MORROW"MEAN(s)T "NOTHING"...eXXXxxxcept anOTHER DAY of "BEING"a "C(l)OG" in a "POINTLESS"NIHILISTIk"MON(k)EY "MAKING "FUCKening "MACHINE"....

..."FREEDO(o)M"'s JUST anOTHER WORD for got NOTHING left (butt?)...TO LOSE...."ahhh"JANIS JOPLIN"DRINK"DRUNK"THE"JESUS JUICE"SATAN'S DEVIL'SFALLEN HELL'sANGEL"sBLOODTURNed INTO "DIVINE"W(h)INE"AND"A"GRAVE"GR(e)AVE"GREY"G(R)AY"""..."peter criss"THE" CAT"MAN"...PISSED ON from"THE" "GREAT"HEIGHTs"..."THE" TOP"of "SEMITIK"SKYSK-RAP(p)ERS..

."ahhhh"SEMANTIK"GOLDen"SHOWers"....of "e(yo)uGENE "THE"DEMON"MAN"KISS""simmons"SUMMONing" an "ACID"REIGN"from "ACID"TONGUES"SPITting"ACID"RAIN"and "FAKE"BLOOD"from"EXXXexxx(im)PLOSIONS "IN"THE"SKY"with"GUNS"like "CREATURE'S of THE NIGHT"...."A WAR MACHINE"..."DOWN"ON"ME"...."THE"SUN"GOES"like a "george MICHAELomichael"on"elton JOHN'sjohnSON" or a TOILet....

..."GENESIS"''s "PETER GABRIEL"TRYing to COMFORT THE ONLY "BUSH" kate's and (im)POSSIBLY? YOUr "BUSH"..don't "GIVE"UP"you STILL have U.S  .."going"DOWN"to "SOUTH"PARK"...to "SEE"some "FRIENDS"of "MINE" if "i"CAN"unW(h)IN(e)D...AMPLE PARKing DAY n NIGHT...LEAVE (Y)OUR WOE-iS "me" "BE-hind"...wHERE'S "my" BUSH" "STRUNG"OUT"HUNG"HIGH"UP"on "5"TABS"of "ECSTASY"STASIS"DOWN"ed "BLACKWHITEWAR HAWK" ...E...absW

.."AND"ALL"philDRIBBLEcolons"MUST "BE" KILLED"THAT"CUNTKUNTCANTCOCKKOCKKOCK...WHAT DID "KING"kurt"say"?....SOMETHINGness "NICE"and"INTEREST"in g abOUT "his" (yo-YO)UR-INE "and" BLOOD" like "some" GR(e?)ATE-FULL DEAD" TIE"DIED"SHIRT"....

.."BUTT"he "IS...a "GOOD"DRUMmer"BUMmer"NOW"THAT"''s for "SURE"..."TRYin g to "CUMCOME"ALL"OVER"INside" "T-HE(I)R"and "(Y)OUR "HEADS", "HEARTS" and "MINDS"...WITH "WHINE"s "and" SAD", "MELANCHOLY"PATHetik"FAUXXXxxxQUASINAZIPSEUDO SINEMATIK"MUSE-ak-ACHE-EEEeeeiiiikkkk.........

..."LOOK"(with)INg for "CUMFORT" and "MEANing""in"A"MEANING"LESS"WORLD..."A"(ir)RATIONAL,(en)LIGHTENed "VOID", A" "VERITABLE"BLACHHOLE"of"REASON"SLEEP"IN g "A"WAKE"N"IN" g "GOYA"'S"MONSTERS"..."(Y)OUR" OWN"FRANKENSTEIN"s"herMAN munster"MOTLEY CRUE CREW"GUNS'NFUCKeningROSES"HARD "ROCKS"KNOCKS"FORT KNOXXXxxxXXXxxxxOOOOoooo HEAVY"METAL"I-...

..."godSPEED!YOU(r) POST...MODERN....MODEM EMP(T)ERROR ...WORDs PLAYINg on MEANing ..."JUST"to "ENTERtain""EXXXxxxXXXoooOOOoooOOOPRESSion....

...RESISTance BE CUM COMEs "DUTY"...FOR "I" "WILL"TRY"TO"BE"..."NOT"SILENT"SILENCE"for "THE"MASSES"...BUTT"MADness"in"PERFORMance ARTaud...

.."AND"my"SELF"DE-(FENCE)con-IN-STRUCTS "SUICIDE" FAT"CAT"MAN""LARD"TAKE"AWAY"PROCESSed"FOOD"EXXXxxxXXXoooOOOoooCESSssCEPT"ACCEPT"SMOKE with IN ("freudian PSYCHO-ANALytikal)CIGARrettes, BOOZYWOO-zy ALCOHOL..."myOUR BODY "IS"..?..."A" "TEMPLE" TO BE" ?...."A...."BURNT OUT"NU-CLEAR RE-AKTOR... "CHERNOBYL"...

"WATCH"ing "BLEAK"REAL"ity "TeleVISION", "VIOLENT""S(a)TA(n)TE SANCTIONed"DEATHS" on "THE"NEWS"and "IN"PROPOGANDA"RECORD BREAKIN g PERVERTed SICK MAD IN-SANE GANG BANG "BUSTERS"....

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REFER "ARTaud, ARTist, MADman, PROPhet" on "mainpage" of http://smcp.bravehost.com     

...so there i was "hoping for a "new" start"...when ....let's call her "virtualclaudeglass.blogspot.com"...casuALLY turned to me and said...

..this..

.."so you're into (f)ARTaud are you...?"..

...to which "i" replied like A-PATHetic discipular DEVOTEeiaa-a L.

..."yeah ..."discovering him was like finding "god""...."who" then "ROLLED OVER IN THE GRAVE"...to "RISE LIKE A "PHOENIXXXxxx"..."FROM THE "ASHES"", the SUN'S SON OF "FIRE""o)))) ...NOURISH in g, OFFER in poison..POISON PRISONsun.saturnUNDER THE SIGN OF SUSAN SONTAG'S SATURN RINGS a ring a ring a rosey a pocket full of posey a tissue a tissue WE ALL FALL DOWN DEAD WITH THE (f)ARTaud's BLACK PLAGUE ...PILE UP THE (little boyszzzZZZzzz) BODIES...."SATAN'S BLOOD"MICHAEL's "WACKO JACKO" JACKSON''s SUNson "JESUS JUICE"jismspoofshpunterncummBLOOD" OF"CHRIST"turns turned, turning to W(h)INE...CONSUMEd by A (OUR{OWN) little)SECRET FIRE ...DO YOU "think" i AM..."I AM "ZZZzzzEEEeee MAN "...cum(mining) and FEEL THE BLACK SPERM OF MY VENGANCE"..."BEYOND THE VLLEY OF THE DOLLSZZZzzzZZZ"....or "IS THAT YOU"?!!1...crawling up my stairs withya long black hair...like some kinda "paul stanley's "KISS" writin' on my mirror with ya lipstick, much too vain, got scattered brain, ya use me 'nuff to GET ALL...ACT YOUR AGE GET OFF YOUR STAGE when you know you always take the boysngirrrls you like , play nice then STICK THEM WITH YOUR KNIFE...take off your INSECURE DISGUISE OWWWW!!!! ...pretEND SPACE ACE guitar SOLO...IS THAT YOU...THUNDERBIRD,..."VIRGIL"...i AM A VAMPIYRE, W(h)EREWOLF, and TROLL..hairy and flat- footed...

..."YES"!!!!..."i GET DRUNKiNg,DRINKdrinkPERHAPS YOUR GOD IS MY GOD...and we COULD ALL BE THE SAME...THAT IS DEAD...SUPERNATURAL...SEEING DEAD PEOPLE like WE ARE A SICK "SIXXXxxxTH" noSENSE...REVENGEning THE "SITH"...TO DIE ALONE TO-GET-HER...in THE WHITE NOISE  of a VIR(i)TUAL REALity in CYBER SPACE...and so-called... "pseudo"quasi"fauxxxXXXxxx"inTELLectual BANter....wanker...(FUCKening)...WANKer...

...butt "i" DOdodo (not) KNOW THIS, and DOdodo AS "FUCK" KNOW"that WE ARE ALL COOKS,THIEF'S(FUCKening SICk THIEVES), CRIMINALS, ALIVE DEAD WHORES,HIS WIVES HUSBANDS, SISTERS, yoU2 pro-BONOon the dunno EDGE  BR-OTHERS DAUGHTERS, OF THE HEART, SONS OF PETER GREENAWAY LOVERS aNd CREATORS OF yOUR DEAD "GOD"(S...FUCKening MADMAN...

..."MAD""NIEZTCHE"'s "i AM I AM ...ALL.... THE NAMES OF HIS-STORYstory..."nietzche"'s)A

...AND WHAT ARE WE FUCKENING DOING HERE?...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!like some kinda JUNE OF '44...this thing, this WHOLE GODDAMNED FAMILIAL FUCKENINGTHING IS.... A...RECIPE FOR DISASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...SUFFER INg, HAVEning FUN SWEAR IN..."WE ARE "LIVING" ....DEATH...DEAF!!?....COMMUNEicATE eaten in SO MUCH "WHITE NOISE"in the VIR(i)RTUAL REALity of PRET-END CYBER SPACE ACE....

...i had a better "answe(A)r for "you" last night...butt "i" lost" IT"....

...BUTT and i sure as hell CANNOT speak for OTHER CULTures....SLEEPing "IN" and BECUM IN "deleuzian" more RELEVANT and REVERENT BY THE "MINUTE"...in A PERPET(yo)U-ALL WAR ON tERROR which EXPLAINs PEACE AS only a PASS INg PHASE (p507 Antonin ARTaud "Selected Writings" EDITed by SUSAN SONTAG, "Farrar Straus and Grioux "1976 REST IN PEACE GOD BLESS i LOVEd YA).... like a "PAEDOPHILIC" CARDi(nA)NAL RAT-SINger POPE POACHED EGGs BENEDICT THE WHAT!!!????forEVER.....at least THE LAST WAS AN AKTor!!....

..." There are CONsciousnesses which , on certain days, would KILL THEMSELVES over a simple conTRADiction, and to do this it is not necessary TO BE  a MADman, a registered and CLASSIFIED madMAN; on the CONtrary, IT IS enough TO BE in GO(O)D health and TO HAVE REASON "on one's side."....(pg 511 ibid, "MY" fuckening EMPHASIS...)....

...SO YO "dmahan" "i" LUVLOVE "THEE" LET "ME" COUNT "THE "WAYS"...by CONCURring and AGREEing EMPHATIC-ALLY in THE BELIEF...that ARTaud was NOT "suicidal" ...BUTT look to THE SCRIPTures of HIS "VAN GOUGH, THE MAN SUICIDED BY SOCIETY"....AS BELOW at the bottom of the most cruelly desperate slopes of the heart...(TO END THE JUDGEMENT OF GOD)...

"BEsides, ONE DOES NOT COMMITT SUICIDE BY ONESELF. No-one has ever been born by oneself. NO-ONE DIES BY ONESELF either. But in the case of suicide, there must be an army of evil beings to cause the body to make the GESTURE against nature, that of taking it's own life. And i BEli(e)ve that tHERE IS ALWAYS someone else at the moment of extreme death to strip us of our own life."(p 511 ibid)

"...INSISTence on AN ENTIRE ORDER BASEd on the fulfillment of a primitive INJUSTICE...ORGANized CRIME...Things are going badly BE-CAUSE SICK CONsciousness has a vested INTEREST RIGHT NOW in NOT RECOVERing from IT's SICKness.THIS IS WHY a TAINTed SOCIETY has INVENTed PSYCHIATRY TO DE(a)FEND ITself A-GAINst the INVESTigations of CERTAIN SUPERIOR IN-TELL-ECTS WHOse FAC(t)ULTIES OF DIVI-NATION would BE TROUBLE-SOME."....(ibid p483)

"Gerard de Nerval was not MAD, but SOCIETY ACCUSEd, him of BEING MAD IN ORDER to DISCREDIT certain ...REVELATIONS that he was about to make."...(ditto)

"IT IS a MAN WHO PREFERed TO BEcome MAD, in the SOCIALLY ACCEPTed SENSE of THE WORD, rather than forfiet a certain SUPERior IDEA of huMAN honor. So SOCIETY has STRANGLEd IN it's ASYLUMS ALL those it wanted to get rid of or protect itself FROM  it's accomplices in certain great NASTINESSES. For A MADMAN IS also A MAN whom SOCIETY DID NOT WANT to HEAR and WHOm it WANTed to PREVENT from UTTERin-g certain INTOLERABLE TRUTHS....Thus on the occassion of WAR, a REVOL(U)T)ION), or SOCIAL UPHEAVAL STILL IN THE BUD, the COLLECTive CONsciousness IS QUESTioned and QUESTIONS ITself, and makes JUDGEMENT....IN CONNECTion with Baudelaire, Poe, Nietzche, Kierkegaard, Holderin, Coleridge...van Gogh.."(ibid p 486)

DOCTORS(PSYCHIATRISTS(trysts?))and MEDICINE are THE SOURCE of AN EVIL ILLNESS that DE-TESTS GENIUS IN ARTists as THE ENEMY..."...THERE IS in every lunatic a MISUNDERSTOOD GENIUS WHOse IDea, SHINING in his head, FRIGHTENed PEOPLE, and for WHOm  DELIRIUM was the ONLY SOLUTION TO the strangulation that LIFE prepared FOR HIM."(ibid p 492/3)

"I MYSELF spent nine years IN AN INSANE ASYLUM and i NEVER had the OBSESSion OF SUICIDE, BUT K-NOW that EACH CONversation with A PSYCHIATRIST....made me want TO HANG MYSELF, realizing that i would not BE ABLE TO CUT HIS THROAT."(ibid p496/7)

And FIN-ALLY..."I, in a similar situation, shall NO LONGER TOLERATE someone TELLing ME, as so often HAPPENed, "Mr ARTaud, you're RAVING,(YOU ARE MAD - TO END THE JUDGEME(A)N-T OF GOD) "without COMMITTING A CRIME."(ibid p511)...

...so this brings "us", well "me"  to "WHAT ARE WE FUCKENING DOING HERE?", and by doing so CARING through AKTion and "THOUGHT",(ALL THE MORE) HOPE-FULLY AS "ART"...to "just do "IT"" as THAT "FUCK"ening multi-slogan said...and "TO BE (or not TO BE that IS THE QUESTion)ALL "YOU" CAN"BE and ALL "YOU"CANNOT"BE"..."NICE"n"INTERESTingly", to SEEK" MEANING" whilst "ENGAGING" in "EMOTIONAL"FUCKfuckfuck"W(h)AT-AGEwwadtage"iinterestAnice

...THAT IS...

...FOR THE MASSES.... SILENCE FOR THE MASSES....

...MADness TO ESCAPE DEATH and RETRACE steps to anOTHER EXISTence WITHin "THE REAL" of THIS REALM...AN HONOUR-ABLE PURPOSE TO A SOCIETY DEVOID OF HONOUR...

OR...SUICIDE....as a SIGN, an AKTion. a GESTURE SIGNIFYing THE VICTORY OF SOCIETY OVER LIFE...  THIS IS THE STORY TOLD(OF VAN GOGH)..."AND THIS IS... what gave THE FINAL TWIST to THE KNOT OF BLOOD ...IN HIS THROAT... THAT STRANGLEd HIM."...

"(f)ARTaud's "PIGSHIT(e) writing and theatre was a POSTMODERN CELEBRATION TRYing TO TOUCH THE"FERVENT REALity OF LIFE"...BUTT "a HEALthy dose of "psychiatric medication" and MAY-BE some "good" TIME with a GOOD THE-RAPIST...i dunno ...butt HIS ART imPROVED ME and ULTIMATEly THE "QUALITY" OF "MY LIFE" in these POST so-(self professed)called"THE DAY THE WORLD CHANGED"TIMES.....

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